Mood: Disturbed
Watching: HellBoy

It's been awhile since I've added anything to my site here. I guess with all thats been going on with me, I've been to distracted to really focus like I want to. I have alot of deviations I need to sort through from everyone and some comments I need to respond to as well, it's gonna take me a minute but I'll get around to it as soon as possible.

My last journal entry was about my seizures. Well I was glad to learn that I wasn't having seizures at all but quite disturbed to find out I have a Neurological disorder. So I'll be back and forth having all kinda tests done within the next coming weeks so they can figure out whats really going on with me only thing that they seem sure about is that my brain activity is not producing what it needs to for my arms to not tremble. Whatever the hell THAT means.

Life has been good to me lately financially. I came into some money so I was able to pay off some bills, redo my entire living room and buy me a car. I thought I was rich for a second and it sure felt dayum good. lol

Brandon constantly stays on my mind. My poor 15 year old son is choosing to go down wrong paths in life and it doesnt seem like there's much I can do about it. He's staying with his father for the time being and that doesn't seem to be helping either. Sometimes I dont know whats wrong with these kids when they choose paths that they know are not good for them. When I received news yesterday that he may have a girl pregnant, I bout fell on the floor and died. Then when I found out that the girl was trying to trap him and she wasn't pregnant at all I wanted to beat her ass for lying to me. Even though I'm glad she's not pregnant the thought still stays in my mind that eventually one will be and thats very sad. Me and him have had this talk many times. We've talked about the important of condoms but preferably abstinence but it seems he's not listening to my warnings.These young ass kids want to grow up so fast, they haven;'t a clue that being and adult is not fun for us so what makes them think it will be fun for them. So I just sit here, with a medical problem I know nothing about and a son thats driving me crazy as fuck. All I can do is pray that God will make things better.

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